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Thursday, May 31, 2007

Had the most horrible of days since I'm here in France. You would think by having such a bad day, people would cut me some slack and let me breathe. No! I have become such a pushover, a carpet, a dirty used rag that others use to stamp all over me! I am going crazy! I am having panic attacks!!

The phone did ring! But why? Why the heavens did I screw it up? It's this phonecall for the course that I want to take but I did not expect the call at all. Not at all! I have a dreadful morning! Oh I want is to beat the hell out of a sandbag though I know my fist will just swell into the size of a rice dumpling! Why did she had to bloody call me when I'm so agitated and pissed! Perhaps my french is not there yet! Perhaps it will never be there!

The conversation went as follows:

Lady: Hello, may I speak to Madame Wadoux please?

Me: (I never know if it is a telemarketeer or whoever it may be? Plus it doesn't help that there are two Madame Wadouxs in this household and usually I'm not the one they are looking for! Why the hell must the call come through via my residential phone? All business related calls should go to my handphone so I will be prepared! Why? Why? Why?!) Yes, speaking.

Lady: Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah formation blah blah blah.....

Me: (What the f**k!! I didn't catch a single thing beside the fact that she must be the lady that I corresponded with with regards to the course I wanted to take in September)Sorry, I don't understand. (I am too agitated, too lost, too shocked to remember to ask her to repeat herself, which I will kick myself for later. You will see)

Lady:(Surprised tone) Oh you don't speak much French do you?

Me: Yeah. (Kicking myself from every angle! Why the hell did I say that?)

Lady: Okay, bye then! (She hanged up)

Then came the ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Oh no!!!! What have I done? Oh no Oh no Oh no!!!!!!!!

I didn't think when I speak. I was too angry with what happened this morning. I was too angry with France. I was too angry with certain French. Do I honestly think she'd switch to English when I said I don't understand? I was and am a bloody fool!

Flashback to this morning.

I took the scooter and travelled half an hour as per normal to my driving lesson. There at the doorstep was another girl. Lady boss was whispering conspiratorily with her as words like "we'll have to ask her about it, don't we?" came into earshot.

Lady boss: (Plastered on her sweetest smile) Hey, (Almost affectionately) this girl here is going to pass her driving exam later. She would like to drive a bit for practice. Would you mind letting her have your slot?

Me: (Yes I mind! I f**king mind! Why does this happen to me EVERYTIME? Someone is always either passing their practical exams or practising for their practical exam during my slot? Why why why why why? Where is the professionalism? Where is the good organisation? ASSHOLEs! BITCHES!) Okay.. (Coward, Carpet, Pushover!! I AM SO CANNOT MAKE IT THAT I HATE MYSELF SOMETIMES!)

Lady boss: Quick say thank you to her! She's so nice! (To me)You can practise your code in the meantime in the other room. (To her) You will drive until 11 ok?

Naive me thought that I will be able to drive at least for half an hour from 11-11.30 so just resignedly went into the theory room. This is my last hour of practice and that bitch didn't even let me take the full test practice. She took a lesson dvd and make me work on it with only 10 questions at the end of it! This is totally cheating my money! I am not a moron! For my last theory lesson, I don't even get a full test practise! I have to give up my test for other sad puppy eyes looking girl to practise an hour before her exam. F**k! Am I really such a pushover???

Sad puppy eyes looking girl: Oh thank you! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

I smiled weakly!

Truth to be told, I hope she'd fail. Come on. Who the hell marched in unannounced on other people's slots and teii3(sweet talk) their way through to a last minute practice session. It's a conspiracy! True, I could have said no. I could have been assertive. But I know the lady boss will give me shit during my one hour of driving. I am so sick tired of these racist bitches. She seems nice to everyone except me. What sets me apart from the others is my race and nationality. If she has a problem with that, she is just a white racist creep, which she is! Why am I always being taken advantaged of? Why am I struggling? Is it because I am lazy? Is it because I am underachieving? WHy why why?

I really wanted to watch Pirates of the Caribbean. But why did I force myself to go to sleep in the cinema last night? Why did I force my eyes to close when I was not sleepy? The truth is this! I'M SICK AND TIRED OF HEARING HOLLYWOOD MOVIES IN FRENCH! LISTENING TO CHOW YUN FATT SPEAKING IN ENGLISH IS BAD ENOUGH! Can you imagine how excruciatingly it is to listen to it in French? Plus it is a difficult enough to follow show in English, how can I follow in French? Watching movies is supposed to be a form of relaxation, not a French lesson! I am going to puke! Plus L'Aiglon is the worst cinema in the entire world where the guy working there switched off the film before we could see the scene after the credits! Imbecile! Help! I am so sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick SICK of it all here! Sick of getting rejections in my face! Sick of getting people hanging up on me just because I couldn't catch their French fast enough and they couldn't speak English! Come on! English is even more spoken than French! Why am I subjecting myself to all these! Screw them all LOSERS!

Labels: bitches

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Monday, May 28, 2007

The days have been and still are dreary. When is the sun ever going to come up again? I don't like bleak days filled with grey clouds. Sad. Wet. Cold. The wind goes "Whoosh" and seems like my friends had taken the sun with them. Rhuematic weather. Sigh.

Finally triumph over the irritating flu bug and am now feeling much better. Yet the weather does not suit my mood. I cannot go out and play. No more jogging, tennis, nor long walks in the meadows. No more scootering around as my scooter lies forlornly under its cover. *Brrrr* It almost feels like bleak old London. Almost, but not quite.

Am at the receiving, (read: waiting) end of things yet again. The endless wait that seems to stretch forever. I would love to think that things are looking up and the winds of fortune have changed. Alas. Fortune vs laziness. Who will win in this match to death?

To wait. That's an absolutely horrible thing to do and one of the things I simply dislike. Waiting to see how my life will turn out and which route to take. Waiting for all the pieces to fall into place. Waiting for the phone to ring bearing good news. Why do I always find myself on the receiving end of things. Remembered a workshop during sec school. Leaders make things happen. Losers wait for things to happen. Perhaps I am a loser in this aspect. But whoever says a loser can't fan3 pai4 wei2 sheng4? (Overturn the loss into triumph) Well, perhaps a lazy one will take even longer.

Please may the phone ring and the emails come in. To a better tomorrow, better weather, better week. *Chintz*

Labels: philo, weather

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Saturday, May 26, 2007

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Been down with flu for the past couple of days and it's really exhausting. I have already pre-empt it by taking lots of vitamin C and the much appreciated Coryzalia but apparently the virus is stronger than me. Hate to be down like a fly but yet what can we do? Luckily am feeling much better and like a human again.

This has been an amazing week as I had my first visitors from good ole Singapore!! Miss Xw and entourage dropped by on Sunday and we had a lot of fun. I don't know about them but I certainly did. The poor babes and dude looked tired from their military styled itinery as they climbed up into my little haven.

Complaints include the miniscule shower with the sticky curtains and wearing shoes in the house. Haha. What to do. The Europeans love to wear shoes in the house and woe is me! Thinking how many times must I sweep the floor a day to keep it clean?! Simple. I just don't. Haha. Well, I don't exactly live in the Dustbowl either. I try to vacuum and sweep at regular intervals. How regular? Don't ask. Haha. Bought wines and liquor for them and they do not even drink much! Hmmph! Haha. But hopefully they had a good time and a good sleep at my humble abode.

Crashed with them in Paris and had fun touring around. Think of buggy rentals in the Chateau de Versailles and driving round a 10-15km/h. Ornate gold decorations and all the luxe in the castle. The grandeur of the Opera and good ole wine and dine in Paris. I had a blast. Singaporean hospitality. J's parents are really nice! So warm and they remind me of my own parents. Parents are universal and it's really, really heartwarming to feel a bit like home over here. Thanks to J's dad's secret recipe, I managed to get a taste of home.

Would be a long wait before another of my SG friend flies over. Singaporean hospitality. One of its own.

Labels: friendship and happy days

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Friday, May 18, 2007

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Sunday, May 13, 2007

Salut tout le monde!

I've gone MIA yet again! Latest news! The baby goose had really gone MIA! Sob sob! The other one had been crushed by its mother! It's a tragedy with regards to the geese family!

I've been and still am keeping up a healthy regime of tennis, swimming and The Toboggan! The Toboggan is the tall and huge slide 5 storeys high! Imagine swishing all the way down being carried by the flow of water!Reminiscient of Fantasy Island! Bwahaha. I am so healthy now that I can't believe myself! Muscle ache is my good friend! But today I've experienced some abrasions on my butt on the Toboggan when there weren't any the first time round! Hope my butt had not grown bigger! Yeah, this post sounds bimbotic due to the fact of me reading Bridget Jones' diary in French. Yeah. Tried to read Albert Camus' "L'etranger" in French too and my bookmark is still lying in the middle of the book. Ah.. French sweet French. Watched Spiderman 3 last night in the cinema in French. Yeah, French again. What can one do when one's in France right?

Heard from my bro that yesterday was my grandpa's birthday! If Ah Gong is online, happy birthday to u!!! But I know Ah Gong will not come online one so attention to all cousins, bro of mine, kindly pass the message to Ah Gong and help me wish him a very happy birthday! Too late to call now! A postcard is on the way but sssshhh don't tell him! It's gonna be a surprise!

Boohoo! I'm going to miss all the family celebrations! Birthdays and all! Sob sob! I don't want! I don't want! I want to eat Ah Gong's birthday cake! I want to eat the buffet! Even though it's normal stuff like curry and all but hey, you can't get it here!!!!!!!!! Here = spaghetti, tagliatelles, fresh cream, cheese, ham and sausages, bread, bread, bread, bread, bread, bread, bread, bread, bread, bread.........brrrrrrreeeaadddd.....

On the TV watching front, Prison Break is DA BOMB!! Fast paced and cool but it kinda gets draggy and tiring at the 2nd half of the 2nd season! Wentworth Miller's character is so smart! Although everyone is swooning over him and thinking of getting attached to him, I rest zen. I'm not weird or what ok. He's probably gay and I still root for Tony Leung anytime! Yeah! I like mature men who do gardening! Bwahahaha. For the female cast, the character Veronica Donovan is kinda irritating and I guess that's why the script writers killed her off. Doctor Sara Tancredi is quite pretty but after a while it's lost on me too. All the convicts have a sad story and though it can be a little cliched, it's still heart wrenching all the same. Sob sob. My heart goes out to Patovchik? (don't exactly know the correct spelling but it's that mental guy who jumped off because of the stupid Agent Mahone!) Bellick is just so annoying that I feel like boxing him! Thanks Claudie and your boy Christophe for being so kind as to provide me with the DVDs!!! Thanks a million!! Deeply appreciated by a Prison Break fan! You'd be pleased to know that I've finished it already!!

Okay! Got to run! Have a good week everyone and happy mothers' day to all mothers!

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